it’s my birthday today. i have now lived 29 vibrant years. today is also an especially difficult day for me because just 2 weeks ago, I was in my parents room with my mom, jeremy and my dad, and I was holding my dad’s hand as he passed away. I cannot begin to convey what that loss has felt like, or the many waves of grief that have rolled over me. my dad was, and still is my hero. i was, and always will be his beloved little girl. every year of my life, he has been my first birthday phone call or text message. today that is different. i grew up with an amazing man for a father. i can honestly say that he is the reason I know God is real, he is the reason I can walk around on this small spinning earth and know that i am loved and i have a unique place in it, and he is the reason life will never be the same without him. so, today, I decided to honor him, and share a gift with you on my birthday – a few minutes of remembering and honoring the person who helped make today possible. it would be a gift to me if you would watch it.
also…thank you to all of you who have loved on us so incredibly well in the past two weeks!!! the prayers, throughts of love, cards, flowers, calls, texts, dm’s, meals, subbing for me at weddings, random acts of kindness and treats have been medicinal to my heart, as well as my beautiful mother, and jeremy + the brothers. I love you all. I don’t think the ache of losing my dear sweet daddy will ever go away on this earth. and I think that means that i have the greatest birthday gift of all – knowing I have a heart filled with and capable of real, lasting love that not even death can kill.